Hello. I'm torrey. How are you? I am figuring out this whole thing that we call Life. Day by day. I need my tea and my faith during the day, and I'm good. Lovin' never hurt, either. I live my life with a great man and my rats; what more could a girl need?

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Writing and drinking tea. Doctor’s orders. In-home therapy at its finest. #poetry #tea #blankpage

Writing and drinking tea. Doctor’s orders. In-home therapy at its finest. #poetry #tea #blankpage


Writing music helps me get out my emotions and feel. It is what I need. I am about to start a new chapter, and it is a hard one this time. And it will be good. I expect this leg of the journey through life to be filled with its mountain top experiences and its valleys. I heard something today: it is never weak to know you are at the end of your rope. It is all about how you deal with that. And I, for one, don’t plan on letting anything but my love for myself consume my mind and soul. So I will create. And I will ask for help along the way from those who know more than I do.#peaceofmind #music #livelife #iwillgetbetter

Writing music helps me get out my emotions and feel. It is what I need. I am about to start a new chapter, and it is a hard one this time. And it will be good. I expect this leg of the journey through life to be filled with its mountain top experiences and its valleys. I heard something today: it is never weak to know you are at the end of your rope. It is all about how you deal with that. And I, for one, don’t plan on letting anything but my love for myself consume my mind and soul. So I will create. And I will ask for help along the way from those who know more than I do.#peaceofmind #music #livelife #iwillgetbetter



I am hurting.

And

I am getting help.


A Torrey

unexpectedbalance:

Is far away
And I miss her
And I wish I was
More awake so I 
Could write her a better
Poem but I just wanted

To tel her
There is 
NO ray

Like a Toh-ray

To light up
My life
Even when I
Am an introverted
Problem child and
Don’t reach out to her

And let her know
That I miss her 
Terribly and I understand
Many of the things about
Being in the place with
Failed attempts at trying
To make friends and being
Lonely and sad sometimes
Or all the time but not 
Allllll the time because

She is a TOH’rayyy
The greatest 
Torrey of them all

And she manages
To smile no matter what
And I fucking adore her

I promise to write you
Something more 
Articulate soon

But this is kind of like
One of the chalk things
Your babies drew that

The some of the
Teachers drew on
To give to the parents
And you were like 

Uhm
No
And here’s why

THIS IS THAT METAPHORICALLY AND YOU DIDN’T DRAW ON MINE AND IT’S DUMB AND MESSY BUT I THINK YOU LOVE IT ALREADY AND

I love you

I love you.


When I am sad, I do my hair and do crazy makeup and do my day to day housework. You know what? It cheers me up. I feel better and I look great and feel a little silly. It forces me to stare at myself and take in every single detail. Scrutinize every imperfection. Embrace myself. How can I hate something so beautiful and unique to me? It makes my mind quiet for a half an hour and gives me that hope I search for in my brain. And I am okay. And I will be okay. I silence the sadness with my creativity. I force myself to look at myself exactly as I am and take it all in and turn myself into a piece of crazy. #thisishowidealwithmysadness #iamunique #iamokay

When I am sad, I do my hair and do crazy makeup and do my day to day housework. You know what? It cheers me up. I feel better and I look great and feel a little silly. It forces me to stare at myself and take in every single detail. Scrutinize every imperfection. Embrace myself. How can I hate something so beautiful and unique to me? It makes my mind quiet for a half an hour and gives me that hope I search for in my brain. And I am okay. And I will be okay. I silence the sadness with my creativity. I force myself to look at myself exactly as I am and take it all in and turn myself into a piece of crazy. #thisishowidealwithmysadness #iamunique #iamokay


How to Feel

How to feel lonely:

Take your friends and rip them from your life.

Literally.

Distance yourself thousands of miles away from those you love.

And then 

AND THEN

Miss them.

And wonder if they miss you back.

At all.

How to feel happy:

Make friends with new people.

Talk to old ones.

Explore the city.

How to feel sad:

Realize you really don’t have friends here.

Try and make friends unsuccessfully. 

How to feel empty:

Act like these things don’t really matter and continue living your life.

Drink that vodka in your freezer until someone talks to you.

Could be hours.

Could be days.

It’s no matter.

Conversation is limited and short-lived.

How to feel confused:

Wonder why your friends don’t talk to you.

Different lives, yes, but people are not busy 100% of a day.

Wonder why you cannot make new friends.

How I am:

Sad.

But also happy.

Forgotten.

Withdrawn.

Hardened.

Open to new things.

Hopeful.

Lonely.


flamingmuse:

longdistancewinner:

nuthintasee:

sayuri-b:

thegoatjustatethemoney:

the-ladyfabray:

gleeperformances:

Ride Wit Me

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you must always reblog this.

This wasn’t even scripted. They were just doing it when Ryan came in and saw and said he liked it and wanted them to do it again for the show. :’) they are perfect

I will never ever understand why they didn’t do this at least once every episode. This might be the best moment of the whole show.

I admire all of the polished numbers Glee gives us, but in my head, this is actually what these crazy high school kids sound like when they’re singing all those songs in the choir room.

This

This is what it was like to be in theatre. We would bust out in song and go crazy with songs. I have such fantastic memories for things like this. 

(via imanationalphenomenon)


shittybeatnik:

ancamnarvienn:

Star Trek + Social Commentary (context in the captions)

THIS is what the original Star Trek TV series and films were about. Not just about blowing up things in space and snazzy lens flares with a side order of casual sexism -.-‘.

dude do you know how many people I have pissed off by saying the exact same thing?

Not enough people.

This is why I love Star Trek and will go to my grave still in love with Star Trek. Not to mention the fact that it wasn’t just white men captains, either. There was a damn-fine and incredible woman captain and a terrific black man as captain. And that’s just what the show did of showing us. Imagine the universe. The show is all about embracing new life and new cultures and understanding them. It doesn’t mean to erase other’s cultures by taking over or colonizing or causing fear on purpose.

We are all people. We are all souls with bodies. We need to embrace and love and accept and understand other cultures.

(via jainz)


I finally got my sarcastic hair back. #shorthair #haircut

I finally got my sarcastic hair back. #shorthair #haircut


I believe in love.

(via realityleaves)


t1m3l0rdh4nj1:

Having a pet is so weird. Like neither of you speak each other’s language and yet you form some strong bond by rubbing against each other and sleeping together and you might accidentally kick them in the face or step on their tail once in a while but at the end of the day you two are best buddies from entirely different species.

(via sassy-brain)


extraordinarygurl:

How NOT to be a butterface…makeup

I feel like you need to give me a crash course in how to do my eye makeup and eyebrows…

extraordinarygurl:

How NOT to be a butterface…makeup

I feel like you need to give me a crash course in how to do my eye makeup and eyebrows…

(via extraordinarygurl)


Uhh…

Alright, James McAvoy.

(via obsessedobsesser)